2-3 Months

This kid has some serious expressions. He's either smiling or throwing some eyebrow action your way. When he smiles, he smiles BIG. That may sound dumb, but seriously, he just lights up the room. I hope as he grows up he continues to love that big. 

We had several rough weeks as he was fighting off a bad infection and figuring out some other things with his doctors. But he is feeling much better again and it is so welcomed. 

All of the sudden, he turned 3 months old today! He had his first real giggles a few days ago and he promptly rolled over for the first time just this morning. He's appears to be getting chunkier by the day too. 

I'm so thankful for my guys and looking forward to our annual Friendsgiving feast later this week!

Great is Your faithfulness

Life inevitably has its moments and seasons of stressful times.  

We are currently in such a moment with Cyrus, who is having some health complications with his previous surgery. There are issues in his little body that we can't quite figure out, doctors who aren't sure either, maybe a new surgery, all equaling one heartbroken mama.  I have felt totally helpless lately, which is an especially overwhelming feeling to have when it's in regards to your baby.

After an impressive breakdown last Sunday (and subsequent recovery thanks to generous help from friends), i've been reflecting on how I feel about all this.  

It's difficult to feel like God isn't hearing or answering prayers the way you expect. 

It's difficult when you don't feel like God isn't close by. 

It's easy to feel angry or discouraged.

Although my feelings are not to be discounted, my heart doesn't always speak the truth.  

God doesn't promise a stress-free life.  Even when this situation resolves, i'm certain there are more difficult circumstances that we will face in our life.  So what does He promise?  

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. - Lamentations 3:22-23

 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. - Corinthians 12:9

"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." - Matthew 11: 28-30

God is faithful even when I am not.  He is merciful even when I don't trust Him.  He is strong when I am weak. He is powerful when things are uncertain. He cares and is strong enough to carry my burdens. He has an unending love for me, and Cyrus.

I'm thankful for friends and family who preach the Gospel to me when I doubt and forget to remember what is the truth. I hope these verses are encouraging for anyone else who finds themselves in the same boat.

For this moment i'm going to not worry about tomorow and soak up the extra cuddles with my little boy instead.